got to walk around a little with 2 friends today- left earlier than intended because their family was busy. spent most of our time at the record store. rainy once i got home.

very bugscared today? feeling things crawling on me and thinking i see bugs and then having Real bugs come near me or get on me. earlier i felt the need to check anything i picked up for bugs on it. i dont know where this came from? i feel awkward with writing today

thinking of how i could redesign the site. its lame and has been lame. this is the main thing ive been focusing on for the past hour or so despite not knowing what to change about it. i will make a shitty sketch later. new words page also.

not sure if ive updated much with my current lifesituation. its not interesting. i got diagnosed with autism, upped my grades. school is over for now. i have time to make art again! i could sit outside or watch a movie! amazing! no worries about people looking at me everyday, not for a while. i dont like people being able to see how awkward i am. online is nice because i can choose what i put out there or what others see.

hanging out with friends tomorrow. i hope to actually get out of the house this summer. its harder now since i dont quite have transportation most of the time and i live farther from town- if i want to get anywhere itd require walking on the side of a highway. i dont like the idea of that. itd be easier if i could drive myself but i dont think itll happen soon since i started crying when i tried backing out of a driveway. someday?

typing on a phone from an awkwardquiet classroom. later i want to update this and re-do the site, im unhappy with it.

weirdschedule today, classes are much shorter and i dont know when anything ends. later is an assembly i hope to avoid. i was allowed to use a spray seal thing for artwork i was scared to take home (mediums came off very easily). sitting across from my friend who keeps kicking me. very nerve wracking typing on here, my brain tells me anyone in this room could look over or pass by and see what im typing. im afraid of others judgement.